Burnt Out

Well, I was hoping this blog post would say that I had at least Ivy finished, but alas it is not. That said, my wife is very patiently waiting for me to send her files in order to begin interior work. So now I really, really need to come up with a schedule.

Since my work schedule is all over the place, I'm going to have to buckle down hard and adapt my editing schedule. Therefore, the tentative plan is to have Ivy completed by Wednesday, and begin Oleander by Thursday. I know for a fact that I will probably be too burnt out over the course of the next week (Manager on vacation, so I get to do all the extra orders for the store. Yay me.) to do much editing. That said, I plan to only give myself one week per book. This should mean I finish roughly in the beginning of September.

So, basically, I'm barely giving my wife time to finish it all before the re-launch. Oops. Not like I didn't have this planned for over a year or anything...

Extra fun: I've been having an existential crisis lately. If anyone has actually read the PMC then you know that one of the underlying themes is that there's no life without a purpose. It canonically leads to a character's suicide. Well, I've been dealing with the fact that I don't have any purpose or ambition and it has led me to spiral into another depressive episode. So fun. Much joy.

Now, as I try to work on the doc in my office (the loft of our garage) I have Demon, Ori, and Small Creature out here with me. Small Creature loves it because I have so many totes of junk, he just gets to play hide-and-peek the whole time he's out here. Ori floomps on the bed and just waits for me to be done. Demon, however, is peak stressed tf out. Which means he's pacing between the door and the windows, constantly meowing, and doing that weird lion-esque pant to convey that he is unhappy. But his father insists that he stays out here with me to get used to it. Nevermind that it hinders my work output.

It doesn't help that Small Creature thinks having Demon out here is the greatest thing and he tries to get him to play with him. Which means I'm constantly hearing things moving around that shouldn't be. And all Demon wants is the comforts of the house. Too bad we're all stuck together for a while.

How do work-at-home parents of actual small humans handle this?????

In case you can't tell, I am severely mentally exhausted by life and would really rather not.

Anyway, back to work. The next post will say that Ivy is finished. I'll make damn sure of it.

Even if it means I miss a day of Ark with my sister. (Sorry!)