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Drowning Is Silent

Drowning is silent. There are no frantic splashes. No cries for help. There is only the weight of your body. The waves crashing over your head. The current tugging you to the depths. You grow too tired to fight. Your lungs have no air to waste on crying out. Instead you focus on that tiny little gulp you can take between the waves. You try to ignore the exhaustion settling into your bones. You know that the waves will not let you float at the surface, and if you cease fightin

Consistency Is Key

I'm a person that struggles with creating and maintaining routines. I have all of these lofty ideas and goals about what I'm going to do–especially on a daily basis–and following through for a few months. Then there will be that one thing that throws off the routine, and I'm toast. The only way to combat this is to give me reasonable, achievable goals that I like . For instance, a new Sims4 pack was recently released. When this happens, they offer side quests that allow you

Queen of Odd Jobs

Unfortunately, like most authors, I can't pay my bills on my book sales. (Yet. YET!) This means that I have a day job ... or several? As it happens, I've become the Queen of Odd Jobs. Every time I think I can list them all, it turns out I find another one peeking its head up and requiring attention. So let's try to list them now. Writing This one is my number one, and has been since I was a teenager. I don't always devote the time to it that I should, but it's the one I care

Magickal Weekend

First off: THEY'RE HERE!! My hardcovers have finally arrived and I am absolutely in love with them. I, of course, took a lot of pictures, so those will be forthcoming. Not that I've had time yet to do the kind of photo shoot I wish to. As always, my wife is a complete ROCKSTAR and created a wonderful bunch of books for me. (Though that 2 not lining up even a little bit with the other numbers is messing with her. lol) Now, of course, when I do get time, I'll have to sign, box

Hallmark Christmas

Every year, for Halloween and Christmas, I get super involved in my town. What this actually means is that, about four years ago, I decided that I had to be the change I wanted to see. Growing up in this small town, there was never anything fun to do in the immediate area. I grew up hating this town because of it. Then it dawned on me that I was a part of the problem, because I wasn't doing anything to change it, either. In a case like this, there's a beautiful quote I heard

It's Been A While

Well, it's been over a year since I last posted on this. To be honest, too much has happened. So if you're ready for a full update, buckle up and settle in for the rambling. First of all, I finally moved in with my boyfriend after 12 years together! The catalyst for this? My sister stole my mother and moved her to the desert. (Context: my mother and I have lived together my whole life, and we grew to be financially dependent on one another due to our low income statuses. My